A few weeks ago, a funny thing happened on my way to write a blog post.
I sat down at the computer. And then I just didn’t do it.
I talked myself out of it. I would not describe it as a total crisis of confidence, though doubting myself and my purpose for writing was definitely part of the reason I stopped posting. You may have read my post questioning blogging and the whole blogging culture, where I revealed my difficulties with the artificiality of fashion blogs and my discomfort with self-promotion. Each day, when I posted a link to my blog on Facebook, I’d cringe a little bit inside, and think, “I bet people are wondering who the heck I think I am, posting pictures of myself prancing around in pretty dresses and ruminating about life’s trivialities?”
Eventually, I let that nagging voice of doubt consume my excitement and enthusiasm for the blog. I mean, sure, I’ve had a busy month – I’ve been out of town every weekend in October and out for events on many weeknights. But as we all know, when something is a priority, you do it, no matter how busy you are. And being busy isn’t the real reason I quit posting. I was considering the differences between writing a blog and teaching English in high school, which was my day job for many years before I became a mom. I regularly experienced moments of extreme frustration and insecurity with what I was teaching or the way I taught it, but every single day those kids showed up in class whether I was ready with a perfect lesson or not. There was no opting out for me. Many of the days when I didn’t have my lesson tuned just right became some of the best learning days students had, because I stopped worrying so much about a fancy approach and just really focused on communicating with the kids. I realized I need to bring a bit of that attitude back to my blog.
After a couple weeks without posts, a really cool thing happened. I started hearing from many of YOU. To my surprise, people were actually reading my blog! I mean, I can check metrics and see how many hits I get, but I didn’t realize people actually looked forward to reading my posts. And I also didn’t realize how much I’d looked forward to writing those posts. I’ve really missed writing here and sharing with you. I’m so grateful for positive feedback and encouragement.
I’ll see you tomorrow!